For someone special

It turns out that nowadays I do have happier thoughts. Things have in fact been going very well for me. At this point I can't imagine life without Nicola. We spend almost every waking moment together and I couldn't be happier. We've had our shifts aligned so that we can actually see each other now. I'm happier than I ever thought possible and I owe it all to one person.

It's weird, but I never thought I could really get this close to anyone. I couldn't imagine a world where the social barriers between people just didn't apply. Where it didn't matter where you're normal boundaries of personal space, some people could just break through.

I really don't think I'm expressing it enough...but then that's always been my problem. I never have been good at it. At least I think it's changing. I'm trying.

There are so many things that I love about her it's ridiculous. Some things I can't even put into words. Some things wouldn't do them justice by simply using words. I love how comfortable we are around each other, how she looks out for me and worries about everything, how geeky she can be and much more geeky she's made me. I love how she makes me feel about myself and I love it when she shows me the smallest glimpses of how I might affect how she sees herself.

Right now we're 7 months into the relationship and we talk about things people don't usually talk about until they've known each other for years. Every day I wake up knowing that the rest of my life will be spent with the one I love and that everything, no matter how big it seems at the time, will sort itself out because of it.

I love you baby girl