Shitty day

Today was one shitty day for me. I don't know how it was for you. Better I hope....unless I don't like you. Then you could rot in hell. But lets ignore this first pseudo paragraph. I guess four short lines can be classed as a paragraph.

Where to begin? Money is tight, especially considering some discrepincies on my pay slip. Worst possible timing really. Christmas is going to be awkward.

I found out that the job I went for (against 3 other people), they all got it. It's left me wondering whether I was just a guinea pig, or a casual attempt to prove that they consider outsiders. This was one of the things that again didn't bother me to start with, but just bubbled and bubbled away. I know why they didn't employ me, and I know that they were doing the job already, but they could have just not bothered wasting my time and rejected me in the paper sift.

What else? I think that's enough for one person to deal with really. I do have another test for another job next week....why do I keep putting myself through these things? I mean sure I'm not happy that I haven't progressed in so long, but I'm kinda happy where I am.

God damnnit