For someone special

It turns out that nowadays I do have happier thoughts. Things have in fact been going very well for me. At this point I can't imagine life without Nicola. We spend almost every waking moment together and I couldn't be happier. We've had our shifts aligned so that we can actually see each other now. I'm happier than I ever thought possible and I owe it all to one person.

It's weird, but I never thought I could really get this close to anyone. I couldn't imagine a world where the social barriers between people just didn't apply. Where it didn't matter where you're normal boundaries of personal space, some people could just break through.

I really don't think I'm expressing it enough...but then that's always been my problem. I never have been good at it. At least I think it's changing. I'm trying.

There are so many things that I love about her it's ridiculous. Some things I can't even put into words. Some things wouldn't do them justice by simply using words. I love how comfortable we are around each other, how she looks out for me and worries about everything, how geeky she can be and much more geeky she's made me. I love how she makes me feel about myself and I love it when she shows me the smallest glimpses of how I might affect how she sees herself.

Right now we're 7 months into the relationship and we talk about things people don't usually talk about until they've known each other for years. Every day I wake up knowing that the rest of my life will be spent with the one I love and that everything, no matter how big it seems at the time, will sort itself out because of it.

I love you baby girl

Almost Christmas ranting-shenanigans

Dear Bloggees, I am still not dead, and I don't intend to be any time soon.....although this keyboard will be if it doesn't stop messing with me.

Well it's Christmas, although I don't really have to tell you that do I. I'm semi sorted and looking forward to it now that I've finally gotten the day off. Yes, they decided to screw me over again. It will be three Christmas eve and boxing days in a row, but they'll never tie me down for Christmas. I'm even working all new year when 100 odd other people get one or the other off. This place vexes me.....however I have gotten used to the whole turning my mind off and zombieing through the day with no regard for the bodies I leave in my wake.

Think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts...